i gotta write a monthly wrap-up for february but it feels like not much happened that month... even though stuff did. i gotta get caught up with the new color tcg games though i am ... sure not in the mood rn. at least it's lauma's birthday today, and sylvie's bday is this month as well. i hope i can finish a zhongvie drawing i've left in WIP hell for almost 2 years for it. not really bday flavoured but its a gift to myself for their bday LOL

Finally having time to sit down and write something here that isn't a small update lol.

I got the exchange fic done, which was very important. Happy how it turned out. In general there wasn't much writing this month, but for what's worth, I did like most of the things I did. That one gregclair fic was... ehhh, I did want to get it done for the event so it is what it is. Better luck this month with writing better.

Since Gregor's bday is a mess when it's not a leap year, I technically can still write smth for him today still. I do have one fic I liked working on that's not done yet, so that can work. I don't think starting the one i really wanted to write now would be that great due to not enough time, so I can save that for later.

Other non-writing fun things

I finally got games working on my linux that aren't ones on steam! This is important because I can't really buy games with no money, so this was a great thing for me! Besides Lobotomy Corporation, Fear & Hunger and Darkest Dungeon that I've been played at the beginning of the month, I finally got back to Silksong! Had to restart everything, but considering I was still in the beginning of act 2 there's not too much that I have to go through for that. Tho that final battle of act 1 is once again giving me trouble lol. I do think I should work on getting more upgrades and some more items as I am short on them, including money. This game is very stingy regarding that, tho it's also a bit on me for not going out of my way to find relics and do stuff I did do in the original playthrough. Should probably focus on that instead of hitting a brick wall and going unga bunga on the boss.

Very amazing things for my TCG stuff, as I was able to find hosting for it. It's currently pending so I'm waiting for when everything is ready, but I am so happy for this. this also means it will be easier to play more than one TCG as I will have both space and ability to edit things much more easily.  I've been thinking of joining sparkling, so now that's probably happening once I figure PHP out.

Separate hosting in general is great for me since I have to update my site on the daily if I want to add or remove cards, which is a bit annoying as I've only been updating site for that rather than actual update stuff like when I have fics or add some stuff. This will prevent the site getting pushed when it doesn't need to at least and will only notify people when something actual happens there.

Not exactly the best month, but you gotta have one of those sometimes.

Comforting - gregclair

Return to normalcy - Pav/Daan

Soon to sail ship - Gregor & Faust

HIIII i wish i took pictures of my sleeping magnet cover cause i added a few stickers on it, but not a lot. i need to learn how to import manga on here cause it might finally inspire me to read more manga as well

Hollow Knight

a lot of progress today ... got some charms i was missing, and i finally got the abyss unlocked to get the shade cloak ... fucking wild that you need 15 lifeblood hearts to unlock the one door ... i'd like to get all charms in due time anyway, and try to 100% as much as i can of this game ... god bless the interactive map LOL

there's definitely a lot of secret rooms i haven't unlocked/missed, but now having the shade cloak i ... THINK i should have access to every part of the map aside from endgame stuff or things that require weird requirements

Tomodachi Life

haven't been playing too terribly much ... kavetham almost broke up which lol. lmao even

with my kobo coming tomorrow, i already have some fics downloaded in calibre (god fucking bless fowo's megop fics they make me ill in the best of ways), but i realize calibre generates some fugly basic covers and i ... would like to make some nice covers for my fics as well?? obviously i'll need to take it slow to not burn out (and thankfully canva has nice looking cover templates to work with) but ... it feels a little silly making covers but that's going to be fun

sighs, one day i'll sign up to it as a dating/friendship site, but it sucks to even be considering it. i'd like a relationship, though sure as hell an immensely low priority for my life. sucks that i even have to consider an asexual specific site!!!!! i dont wanna have to deal with men who think they can fix my sex-repulsed asexuality when i have a hard line that i do NOT want to have sex, i'd like to just have someone who's a friend-partner!!!!!

but finding that IRL is a nightmare when i have no way to get out/meet people organically, and i've never crushed on anyone i know online (nor do i want to for myself tbf). sighs, it's more of a worry when i'm closer to 30 to really begin looking into it, i just hope the site is still there in 1-2 years LOL ... and that there's people that are nearby enough to travel to

i need to find a better way to log my colour TCG activity because my ass does not wanna go through all of the posts to find out when i played certain games ... i really need to set up a spreadsheet for that to automate it :skull:

you know you're in deep when u start logging ur stuff into spreadsheets to automate things

what is life but making a spreadsheet to make it easier to send out valentine gifts for color tcg? LMAO (i say as i also have a tab to help automate my logs)

... i still gotta do it but at least it'll be easier to track what i do send out

by that i mean, i wish i was better at taking notes what i did in a day to just have something to look back on LMAO, i've talked about it but my memory is dogshit; journaling helps me to keep up with what's been happening, but it's been a struggle to find some decent way to (more reliably) take jotted notes of just ... what i've done in a day

doing it at night helps, but the issue is i forget very easily sometimes what i did do, and i dont have any natural inclination to stop and take note of anything

to be fair, doing the game logs does help, and so does writing here cause at least i have some inkling of what i've done (here, my treeform forum, neocities, tumblr ... they all have traces of what i've done in a day, it's just the energy of also then hunting all those down to summarize them in one place)

im getting my kobo clara bw e-reader bc i talked to my mum about it, and she wanted to offer covering it since i have no real ... active income ... (i need to super bother my contractor AGAIN about the project tmr so i know if i can consider it done and get my final half payment + see if there are future projects...)

but god, spending money on stuff makes me feel gross. at least once it starts to err over 50 bucks anyway. i don't even wanna talk about when i got my ipad pro, at least i had an active bi-weekly income job then, so i could comfortably pay for it, but it's nerve wracking to even have seen that number of a payment. i think it's just feeling like i don't ... idk if 'deserve' is the right word but like. will i use this? will it be a waste of money? keychains and charms i know are for MY pleasure, and usually don't break the bank too bad (and commissioned artwork is supporting someone else's survival) ... but expensive electronics ... even my poor steamdeck has been shelved because i feel no drive to use it and stuff like that makes me sad (i know i will use it eventually, i want to, especially for switch emulation in due time)

i know i want to read and want to not rely on my phone for doing that when i don't have a physical book. i genuinely want to use it to read, which is obviously its intention as a device. hell, i can even save fanfics to read!!!! it's just so ... icky yucky feeling on spending money :(

I placed into Platinum on Support for the first time!  (Still barely clinging to Gold on Damage.  We don't queue Tank.)

I did it mostly playing Mizuki, who I took an immediate shine to, both character and gameplay-wise.  The last time I actually clicked with a new character was Lifeweaver, so it feels great to have someone new to play.

I just need them to release a Damage hero I can get into now that Sombra's in the gutter.  I'm bouncing around between Reaper, Echo, Symm, and situationally Torb, but none of them hit quite like Sombra did.

Bomb Rush Cyberfunk

oh yea this definitely hits the ‘jet set radio’ spot … fun gameplay, fun art style, i did cheat and look up the story but honestly it’s not too bad of a story. i’ve seen people say it’s a bit easy for the game but i can’t say when only having played an hour and a half last night

Tomodachi Life

…getting on to have one of my pairs be like ‘omg we had a kid!’ and then immediately calling me after like ‘well the baby won’t stop crying can you help’ like guys… cmon even my other pairs didn’t do that…

i gotta get caught up on my color tcg and begin bombarding ppl with their gift cards but my brain aint having it today!!!! grr. i think im on a mild burnout from colour tcg cause i went batshit in my first month and now im trying to balance myself back out LOL